I remember the pain first. You always remember the pain first.
My soul sucked through a straw slowly, he was my first.
Submerged years in his affection, I was unaware
it was distraction for other men who crossed my path first.
In thirst, I followed the sound of brooks, considered the nooks
and crannies of each crag, but still thought I should put him first.
Only a stag in my way, I wandered in with some hay
and some attention made me stay, but I wasn’t his first.
It was only a matter of time before the pillow fort collapsed
relaxed under blanket canopy, I should have known first.
His love was not owned by me, someone else held his key
then I let myself free, by turning away first.
I remember the pain first. Sometimes it still hurts
in that empty place in my chest, where the scalpel sliced first.
It happened twice. It was new and fragile. But it goes well,
like wine and Brie. This is so much more and should have been first.
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NaPoWriMo’s Day 13 Prompt: the ghazal. The form was originally developed in Arabic and Persian poetry, but has become increasingly used in English, after being popularized by poets including Agha Shahid Ali. A ghazal is formed of couplets, each of which is its own complete statement. Both lined of the first couplet end with the same phrae or end-word, and that end-word is also repeated at the end of each couplet. If you’re really feeling inspired, you can also attempt to incorporate internal rhymes and a reference to your own name in the final couplet.